Contemplating.

So my feelings about EVERYTHING at the moment.

I'm very indifferent.
I'm really really numb about everything.
Job, friends, life in general.

I really don't want to be though. I miss feeling passionate about something. ANYTHING!
My brain is going "you should be feeling ok now, it's fine I promise!"
But my heart is going "FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU"

I really need to get started on everyone's Christmas presents.
God I don't even know what I'm doing for x-mas this year.
Everything is becoming really really awkward.

Also,

I kind of miss Livejournal now.

grass is greener as they say.